Update

Chantix is definitely NOT the dream drug I hoped it would be. Reports I read online boasted about how the users didn’t even WANT to smoke after the first few days. Admittedly, I have missed a few doses, but my desire to smoke has not decreased much at all. I did very well yesterday and smoked only 6 cigarettes, but I am at 9 for today and it’s only 5pm. :(

Each morning when I take the pill, I feel incredibly sick to my stomach… much like morning sickness except there isn’t a cute baby growing in my already fat gut.

The sleep issues are really hard to deal with. Last night at 730pm, I was so exhausted I went to bed. I woke up around 1030pm and couldn’t fall back to sleep until 130am. I woke again at 430am and watched a movie until 630am when it was time to get ready for school. Anyone who knows me at all, knows that 6 hours of non-continuous sleep is definitely not enough for me.

I don’t mind the Chantix dreams all that much, except that the dreams are so “real” I find myself questioning whether or not I did the things I dreamt about.

All in all, I am still committed to the process and am trying not to beat myself up for being 8 days past my “quit date” without having quit.